The 1st day of 2021 marked a month since my Gender Confirmation Top Surgery and I am so happy about that! I am a few days late posting this blog entry for the 1 month mark!
To start a brand new year off with a new, masculine chest puts a smile on my face. A year ago I never thought I’d be where I am, at this moment in time. I didn’t really think I’d be on this earth still due to poor mental health and certainly not having had top surgery a month prior! I am so grateful to be here today and to have gone through everything to get me to this point. My mental health is at the best isn’t been and again- top surgery!
I have another follow up appointment on January 7th. My previous appointment was on December 24th. Everything seems to be looking great. I went from having to have the surgical vest/binder on for 24hrs a day to 12. However, I do wear it longer than the 12 because it adds support to the healing process. It is freeing to get out of the vest, especially at night which is when I typically take it off. But, I feel as if in another week or so it’ll be better to be off more compared to now. I’m still not cleared for exercise but if I stretch or bend, it feels better with the vest on than without. My chest still has a tender feel to it, like it is still pulling too much when I move around too much like the muscles and skin and fat are all still healing together and need to get stronger. I know that will improve though as it already is.
There is still swelling going on which is normal. I’ve had some “freak outs” on my own due to the swelling and feeling as if that gives my chest a feminine look to it. But, through reading more information and comparing photos and using a rational mind, I know that complete swelling can take 3 months or more post-op to go down all the way. The swelling has even gone down from one of the times I had a little melt down.
Having my new chest is still an adjustment. I definitely need to lose some weight and my belly now makes me feel a lot more self conscious than before. But having a flatter chest makes me feel amazing. When I’m able to just put on a shirt and not have “lumps” underneath or articles of clothing under my shirt is such a freeing, amazing feel that brings me so much joy.
I’m unsure what the next follow up appointments will consist of, the stiches are the dissolvable kind so I believe they’re more to make sure the healing is going well in general.
Here’s to a month post-op and a brand new year!
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